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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 21.06.2025 11:27

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was seconnd youngest,

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And i lived it daily.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My family never makes their pension either.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I think the readers, may guess!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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So, i spoilt her more .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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My life is so biszare .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As i do to all so called friends.?

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But, we were locked up after school.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I couldn’t, believe it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He resisted the act ,that day.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But it wasn’t much.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We all went to grammer schools

The only rule us 5 kids had .

This is soul school!.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was 9 years of age.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

It was going to be , some day.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She wouldn,t have been !

I have no regrets .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But ive been too sick for many years..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She found it foreign!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

What did i know ?

Comes on , in middle age.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im still living with it.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Put me off passion for life!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I will be 64.

I write beautiful poetry .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He knew the spot.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She married twice! .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I never cut or harmed myself..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Who then, do I blame.?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Ive learnt so much.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I waited trembling.

One cannot live in the past .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She loved him until the end.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I said to her

When she asked me how she looked .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Would this be the day?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

All the time i was locked up.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I don,t even have a pension.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She was in good health!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

We were not on the streets..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So whats the point in blame.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was very sick at this time too.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was scared of men, in general

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im dying but, im not bitter.